Yup, I said it. I think it’s tough to work from home because I haven’t really set up a schedule for myself or the toddler yet.
The only routine we have is when she wakes up, her nappy gets changed into a panty; then she gets her porridge to eat and watch a little television. From there, no routine.
Oh, the routine then starts after I start cooking (at night); she gets dinner, we get ready for bed, read a book and lights out.
Currently, my toddler is home with me after I got retrenched. I started working from home in June after getting a freelance gig. Two more gigs followed. I’ll put her in a creche (nursery school) when I’m back on my feet financially.
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She grabs my pen when I try to write (do admin) and she gets emotional if I’m working on my cell phone (I do my emails and research from there). I’ve had some tantrums and then I throw tantrums and then realise me throwing tantrums doesn’t work on the two-year-old.
Sometimes I feel like I can’t think on work when my toddler is around, even if she’s occupied with something. Is it a mom thing or just a me-thing?
I still love my child and I’m sure she still loves me. At the end of the day, we can hug and kiss each other.
LACK OF SUPPORT
I miss having my parents and other family members around. They’re all in Cape Town (we’re in Joburg). And I have to let go of the office mindset because I’m on my toddler’s time, not my own. That’s why it’s good to get up more than an hour earlier than she does.
I’ve tried waking up one hour earlier than her and it doesn’t work. I don’t get as much done as I should.
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Besides that, we are good. Work is going slowly, but it’s going.
My toddler is growing quickly (she’s been using the toilet instead of her potty for potty training). She can say a few sentences, but I realise that she sometimes want to baby talk with me. Why? I don’t know. She makes these noises and if I don’t get her, she’ll get emotional or I’ll get emotional.
Another milestone is that she can draw things on paper that looks very close to the thing she says it is. And she loves building with her blocks – like a house that looks it’s a couple of storeys big and that it has a big bridge on its premises. I’m always in awe.
She still loves dressing up. And if she doesn’t like something, she put up a big fuss if I’m trying to force an outfit on her. I feel like I can’t go out to buy my child clothes, lol. And she’s only two now!
Lastly, if it wasn’t for my toddler I probably wouldn’t have known the abilities I have. Most things I do because I want to show her it can be done; she’s my inspiration and my motivation. With her around I have to think creatively; I have to change how I do things.
Even if it’s tough, I’m still trying. I have no urge to give up.
Have any of you gone through a tough time lately? How are you dealing with it?
Thank you for reading!